I don't like being moody, but I am a terribly moody person. I'm sure it annoys my closest friends and it definitely annoys me too. I don't really understand how I can be completely I'm-on-top-of-the-world euphoric and fuck-off-cause-I-don't-give-a-flying-fuck pissed the next minute. And there are a few certain people I take it out on that don't deserve it at all; I'm sorry and please bear with me. I sincerely hope that when the stress of high school is over, I will be my sweet old self from... 4th grade? haha. Buuuuuuut, not likely. College will be worse.
My internet addiction is disgraceful. And I'm hungry all the freakin' time. I have no self-control when it comes to internet and food. If it weren't for swimming, I would send my weight scale on a hey day. And I would like to completely ignore homework like a badass if it weren't for the consequences of failing. Actually, no need. My grades in school are pretty ridiculous; I feel ashamed even thinking about it.
I wish I could somehow train my mind into making me a morning person. I wake up every morning feeling like I would trade my life just to sleep forever. I feel like I need caffeine but I would like to hold off on an addiction for as long as I can. And I've been starting to get painful migraines throughout the day, especially after I take a test or if I'm thinking too hard. I usually just stab my temples with my finger and hope that one pain will cancel out the other. I am resisting from painkillers too; that would be even worse than a coffee addiction.
One day, my brother is going to pwn at swimming. By his glory days, he will be a beast and totally enviable. Right now, he's just guppy/fish-like. However, he's darker than me now. By summer, we will be as black as this nasty, rotten banana three inches to my left, because we are already quite chocolate-y and it's only April!
Koreans have like the best music, hottest pop singers, yummiest foods, and they are the masters of dramas. It seems like such a wonderful world in Korea. I have new found appreciation for anything Korean. (oh haaaay! if you could recommend some great new Korean songs, that would be just too kind of you<3)
I need to find some motivation to power through these last few weeks of junior year. After DCON (OMFG! 2 DAYS!!!) and Junior Prom (YAAAY! 9 DAYS!!!), I will have nothing interesting going on other than school-related nonsense. I feel like I need some spice in my life.
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Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Saturday, April 3, 2010
F
So I fail at chem, summer internships, swimming, SATs, and calc.
Things to look forward to until summer: SAT I in May, SAT II Math 2 and SAT II Chemistry in June, AP Chemistry and AP Calculus in May, other internship rejections, Saturday mornings devoted to AP Calc/Chem study sessions, ACTs?, last chances to make CCS, finals.
Everything is too hard. I just want to sleep more than 6 hours per night, get rid of the constant soreness from swimming, and NOT wake up feeling like I want to sleep forever. Yeah, fuck life.
Things to look forward to until summer: SAT I in May, SAT II Math 2 and SAT II Chemistry in June, AP Chemistry and AP Calculus in May, other internship rejections, Saturday mornings devoted to AP Calc/Chem study sessions, ACTs?, last chances to make CCS, finals.
Everything is too hard. I just want to sleep more than 6 hours per night, get rid of the constant soreness from swimming, and NOT wake up feeling like I want to sleep forever. Yeah, fuck life.
Monday, March 22, 2010
The Basics
So I told my parents about prom, and... wait for it... they are supportive about it! BIG SURPRISE RIGHT? I thought they would give me crap about it but my mom was just like "Okay, let's go get a dress! You know, you have to go to your high school prom. I feel like if I didn't let you, you would have some kind of psychological wound and that's not good!" and my dad's just like "Is your date taller than me??" hahaha silly dad. I feel like I've come so far as a daughter. I've never had a full-blown rebellious stage; only arguments here and there (although some were quite dramatic). Even still, the disagreements are extremely rare nowadays. I think the last time I've argued with my parents was around a year ago? There isn't much of a reason to anymore. They trust me to do what I gotta do with my priorities and I respect them and listen. As always, I am extremely thankful for my family and I love love love them.
The more I think about it, the more I realize that I would live a sad, sad life without swimming. I think I would be reduced to a bare minimum without it. Swimming can be the solution to most problems. Stressed? Swim your head off and your mind is cleared. Sick? Swim a few laps and no more runny nose, haha. Fat? Ate too much again? Swim that weight off! Depressed? Go to MHS swim practice with some of the coolest people ever<3 I don't believe I would be who I am today without my team and a pool nearby.
When I have reached a certain age of maturity (which basically means when I get a real job), I am going to blow my first paycheck on high-heels and then wear a pair every time I leave my apartment/house/dorm. I have no clue why I am so in love with them, but I am! Especially stilettos and booties. This is probably surprising since I wear boring shoes all the time. Heels, however, are gorgeous and they make me feel very happy. Clothes are ehhh to me, unless it's a beautiful dress, but shoes are the best part of an outfit.
It's really difficult to consume a healthy diet, especially with a license, a car, and some freetime after swimming practice. My new rules are to stay away from rice at dinner, drink water only, eat breakfast so I don't feel hungry all day, and remind myself that I must stay in shape for swimming (and now prom) whenever I am ordering at a restaurant. It's especially hard right now as I type, since I am really craving some Ghirardelli chocolate... be right back! :D
Who's excited for prom? ME! :)
The more I think about it, the more I realize that I would live a sad, sad life without swimming. I think I would be reduced to a bare minimum without it. Swimming can be the solution to most problems. Stressed? Swim your head off and your mind is cleared. Sick? Swim a few laps and no more runny nose, haha. Fat? Ate too much again? Swim that weight off! Depressed? Go to MHS swim practice with some of the coolest people ever<3 I don't believe I would be who I am today without my team and a pool nearby.
When I have reached a certain age of maturity (which basically means when I get a real job), I am going to blow my first paycheck on high-heels and then wear a pair every time I leave my apartment/house/dorm. I have no clue why I am so in love with them, but I am! Especially stilettos and booties. This is probably surprising since I wear boring shoes all the time. Heels, however, are gorgeous and they make me feel very happy. Clothes are ehhh to me, unless it's a beautiful dress, but shoes are the best part of an outfit.
It's really difficult to consume a healthy diet, especially with a license, a car, and some freetime after swimming practice. My new rules are to stay away from rice at dinner, drink water only, eat breakfast so I don't feel hungry all day, and remind myself that I must stay in shape for swimming (and now prom) whenever I am ordering at a restaurant. It's especially hard right now as I type, since I am really craving some Ghirardelli chocolate... be right back! :D
Who's excited for prom? ME! :)
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Blissful
I feel like I'm in a really good place in my life. Sure, I complain now and then but nothing that really affects my outlook. My parents are totally supportive and my brother always makes me smile; my friends are always great, especially you gang of amazing girls, along with tram and dorkatron lol; school is still rather worrisome but not deadly; and I'm really getting used to juggling and truly enjoying my extracurriculars. I feel like for once, things are going right. I once again feel blessed to live each day instead of wanting to fast forward to the future. And I believe I am in this mood because I'm finally exercising/swimming since November 2009, so more healthy blood is flowing to my brain! haha. Swimming makes me such a happy and better person, and I love love love it. And maybe driving too, driving everyday to school and back makes me feel so good haha.
I was talking with a friend about this the other day, but I wonder what my blog really says about me. Looking back at old entries, I guess you can learn a whole lot about me if you read between the lines. I'm not the type of person to say much, but I guess my everyday thoughts on here say enough, especially if you're cool enough too decipher my meanings :)
I love all this talk about Junior Prom. Who's wearing what dress, who's going with who, who's eating where with who... how exciting! Once I "do what I gotta go" and decide on my dress, I will be like a happy ticking bomb, ready to explode on prom night! And hopefully senior ball too :D
I was talking with a friend about this the other day, but I wonder what my blog really says about me. Looking back at old entries, I guess you can learn a whole lot about me if you read between the lines. I'm not the type of person to say much, but I guess my everyday thoughts on here say enough, especially if you're cool enough too decipher my meanings :)
I love all this talk about Junior Prom. Who's wearing what dress, who's going with who, who's eating where with who... how exciting! Once I "do what I gotta go" and decide on my dress, I will be like a happy ticking bomb, ready to explode on prom night! And hopefully senior ball too :D
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Making sense
I don't know. Am I supposed to? Things have changed, I feel it. I don't know if I like this situation or not, because now I don't know what to do. I think I should just ride it out until I figure things out. When in doubt, maintain the status quo. Things will fall into place, right? Change is too complicated. I don't even know what I'm talking about either. I have too many thoughts bouncing around in my head.
What I do know is that I need a back massage and a real night's sleep. One night, I got eight hours of sleep and I was still tired cause that's more than my usual five-six hours per night. Not swimming for two weeks is also more than I can handle. I need the chlorine to wash out some of this stress.
More often than not, there's a difference between what you want and what you need. Oh my gosh, this reminds me of math. In a way, I guess it can relate to limits. If the limit of f(x) as x approaches a from the left is not equal to the limit of f(x) as x approaches a from the right, then f(x) is not a continuous function. In that case, there can be either one or no functions where the limit of f(x) as x approaches a from both sides is equal to f(a), and even though only one condition is satisfied, f(x) is unfortunately still not a continuous function. But occasionally, the limit of f(x) as x approaches a from the left is equal to the limit of f(x) as x approaches a from the right, as well as equal to f(a), and only NOW do you have a continuous function. And now you're happy and you're living the good life.
That personal and mathematical connection made total sense in my head for some odd reason. But wow, I really need a break from everything.
What I do know is that I need a back massage and a real night's sleep. One night, I got eight hours of sleep and I was still tired cause that's more than my usual five-six hours per night. Not swimming for two weeks is also more than I can handle. I need the chlorine to wash out some of this stress.
More often than not, there's a difference between what you want and what you need. Oh my gosh, this reminds me of math. In a way, I guess it can relate to limits. If the limit of f(x) as x approaches a from the left is not equal to the limit of f(x) as x approaches a from the right, then f(x) is not a continuous function. In that case, there can be either one or no functions where the limit of f(x) as x approaches a from both sides is equal to f(a), and even though only one condition is satisfied, f(x) is unfortunately still not a continuous function. But occasionally, the limit of f(x) as x approaches a from the left is equal to the limit of f(x) as x approaches a from the right, as well as equal to f(a), and only NOW do you have a continuous function. And now you're happy and you're living the good life.
That personal and mathematical connection made total sense in my head for some odd reason. But wow, I really need a break from everything.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
All over the place
It's getting harder to keep up with everything... too much is happening now. Homework load is at its all-time high, and that's pretty much on a daily basis. But I guess that's good. I feel like I'm actually learning math this year cause my AP Calc teacher, Ms. Nguyen, is a demanding yet awesome teacher. My other teachers quite likeable too: with Madame Topping, I'm actually starting to enjoy French; it's impossible to fall asleep in Ms. Conradson's class cause she is so lively; Mr. Henschtke is quite laid-back and the concepts he teaches in Anatomy are pretty interesting; Ms. Meyer's class is a lot of notes and homework problems but Ms. Meyer is still Ms. Meyer lol; and I'm kinda looking forward to actually covering and writing events in Journalism. Some classes are a draaaag and feel like they're never ending, but I have some pretty great people in my classes.
I miss swimming a lot. I feel like I'm getting fat and my eating patterns are slightly off. It's gonna be quite difficult to juggle swimming and school once MTW starts in October, but I think I can manage. I can handle 5 hours of sleep each night... as long as I get myself used to it.
Chinese school might not be insanely boring this year. My teacher, Kong lao shi, loves our input and actually listen to what we have to say. Plus, it's a small class so everyone kinda knows each other already. And we're doing stuff that we actually feel like we need to learn. It's appearing to be a really personalized class and I love that. I really need to focus on Chinese this year cause I need to decide whether I want to take AP Chinese or SAT II Chinese.
I feel stupid talking with retainers. But there is no way in hell I am getting my braces back on again. On the bright side, my retainers are a beautiful shade of blue that I very much like!
OH HEEEEY, I'M LICENSED! But no car yet, boooo. My cousin is going back to China in October though, and I think I might get his kinda boring but driveable Toyota Camry, the car that I grew up in lol. OH, AND FOR THE RECORD, I will NOT offer rides. People are already starting to ask me for rides and my answer is NO, unless you have a legitimate reason or it's some kind of an emergency. Otherwise, get your own license, buy your own car, and break the law yourself.
I blush too easily. It's increasingly becoming a much-hated problem.
I miss swimming a lot. I feel like I'm getting fat and my eating patterns are slightly off. It's gonna be quite difficult to juggle swimming and school once MTW starts in October, but I think I can manage. I can handle 5 hours of sleep each night... as long as I get myself used to it.
Chinese school might not be insanely boring this year. My teacher, Kong lao shi, loves our input and actually listen to what we have to say. Plus, it's a small class so everyone kinda knows each other already. And we're doing stuff that we actually feel like we need to learn. It's appearing to be a really personalized class and I love that. I really need to focus on Chinese this year cause I need to decide whether I want to take AP Chinese or SAT II Chinese.
I feel stupid talking with retainers. But there is no way in hell I am getting my braces back on again. On the bright side, my retainers are a beautiful shade of blue that I very much like!
OH HEEEEY, I'M LICENSED! But no car yet, boooo. My cousin is going back to China in October though, and I think I might get his kinda boring but driveable Toyota Camry, the car that I grew up in lol. OH, AND FOR THE RECORD, I will NOT offer rides. People are already starting to ask me for rides and my answer is NO, unless you have a legitimate reason or it's some kind of an emergency. Otherwise, get your own license, buy your own car, and break the law yourself.
I blush too easily. It's increasingly becoming a much-hated problem.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
What swimming and school do to you
The annual and long-awaited Monterey meet was this weekend. I am pooped. I don't think I have been this sore yet in the past.. year. If I sit for 5 minutes, I feel like someone is continually punching my back. And walking is pretty excruciating, I feel like I just ran miles and miles. Even just sitting down feels like someone has been sitting on my lap for quite a long time. Everything hurts, more than usual. So my mom put on 4 of those Asian patches that HURT LIKE HELL when you try to peel them off. It kinda helped. Advil did too. And sleep, yum.
In general, I guess I'm pretty satisfied with my results, although I always have those nagging regrets. I received the 1st place High Point Champion trophy for the girls 15-18 age group.. that made everything worthwhile :D And MTW got the 1st place team trophy for the highest scoring team. But there was an air of sadness cause it was Alex's last meet with us; he will be dearly missed. I hope he liked our card and acoustic rendition of "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz. And I know I could have gotten better times and I know what I need to work on now: faster recovery in free, faster kick in fly and back, IM turns, stop saving my energy for the last lap!!! I absolutely hate the feeling of being out-touched by a few tenths or hundredths of a second. If I lose, I would rest easier knowing I lost by an entire body length than by the length of a fingernail.
I wish I could have camped out with the team.. but my mom doesn't like the Monterey fog and the cold breeze that results from it. I'm glad we didn't though, a hotel is like heaven. My major back and leg pain would not have been very pleasant at all if I slept on the hard dirt floor. But I did visit the campsite around sunset and enjoy the potluck, making the s'mores, climbing the trees, ignoring the "no trespassing sign", touching electric fences, playing mafia, hunting for bambi, stepping on the poison ivy, nonstop laughing with Vincent, and feeding Victor, LOL. I love my team :)
I am not at all pleased with school. My grades so far are putting me in a super bad mood and a few people said that it shows. I feel like I'm settling. I can do better, I know it. School is one of my top priorities and I feel like I'm losing this competition. I CANNOT lose.
1. I know you don't, but try to understand. We have entirely different priorities. I act like it's nothing, but it's more than that to me.
2. I think it's the end, but I do hope it's the beginning.
3. Thanks for not even bothering to try.
4. It bothers me when you act like nothing has happened.
In general, I guess I'm pretty satisfied with my results, although I always have those nagging regrets. I received the 1st place High Point Champion trophy for the girls 15-18 age group.. that made everything worthwhile :D And MTW got the 1st place team trophy for the highest scoring team. But there was an air of sadness cause it was Alex's last meet with us; he will be dearly missed. I hope he liked our card and acoustic rendition of "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz. And I know I could have gotten better times and I know what I need to work on now: faster recovery in free, faster kick in fly and back, IM turns, stop saving my energy for the last lap!!! I absolutely hate the feeling of being out-touched by a few tenths or hundredths of a second. If I lose, I would rest easier knowing I lost by an entire body length than by the length of a fingernail.
I wish I could have camped out with the team.. but my mom doesn't like the Monterey fog and the cold breeze that results from it. I'm glad we didn't though, a hotel is like heaven. My major back and leg pain would not have been very pleasant at all if I slept on the hard dirt floor. But I did visit the campsite around sunset and enjoy the potluck, making the s'mores, climbing the trees, ignoring the "no trespassing sign", touching electric fences, playing mafia, hunting for bambi, stepping on the poison ivy, nonstop laughing with Vincent, and feeding Victor, LOL. I love my team :)
I am not at all pleased with school. My grades so far are putting me in a super bad mood and a few people said that it shows. I feel like I'm settling. I can do better, I know it. School is one of my top priorities and I feel like I'm losing this competition. I CANNOT lose.
1. I know you don't, but try to understand. We have entirely different priorities. I act like it's nothing, but it's more than that to me.
2. I think it's the end, but I do hope it's the beginning.
3. Thanks for not even bothering to try.
4. It bothers me when you act like nothing has happened.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Looking up
My grades are off to a bad start, disappointing pretest results. But it's only up from here, right? Oh I hope. I'm really settling into my classes now. I love the people in most of my classes.. they're a good mix of familiar faces and plenty of new opputunities.
Practice was fun today. Vincent was being crazier and nastier than normal, and that's always fun to experience. Oh man, this boy...! haha.
I think I should stop using a one-shoulder bag. It's really messing up my right shoulder now. I can't even do fly correctly and my shoulders hurt all the time. Maybe it's time to revive my blanc et noir argyle Jansport backpack. Oh, and I can't wait for Monterey! Hopefully we'll get to camp this year.
BeeMcGee = Mr. Colburn's name for our associate principal, Mr. McGarry. Hahaha! Mr. Colburn is awesome, I love him already.
Five days is oh-so-long! Where's the weekend?! I feel like I haven't talked to you in forever! I'm looking forward to it :)
Practice was fun today. Vincent was being crazier and nastier than normal, and that's always fun to experience. Oh man, this boy...! haha.
I think I should stop using a one-shoulder bag. It's really messing up my right shoulder now. I can't even do fly correctly and my shoulders hurt all the time. Maybe it's time to revive my blanc et noir argyle Jansport backpack. Oh, and I can't wait for Monterey! Hopefully we'll get to camp this year.
BeeMcGee = Mr. Colburn's name for our associate principal, Mr. McGarry. Hahaha! Mr. Colburn is awesome, I love him already.
Five days is oh-so-long! Where's the weekend?! I feel like I haven't talked to you in forever! I'm looking forward to it :)
Sunday, August 23, 2009
MTW Swim-a-thon
OH, almost forgot! Swimathon was on Friday, and the high school kiddos swam the 200 laps (5000 meters) within 2 hours which was BORING AS HELL, except for the occasional corkscrew and backstroke, teehee. and my parents kept nagging me about resting more and drinking energy shakes.. took me a while to convince them that this is pretty much what we do at practice daily. aiyaaa!
A big THANK YOU VERY MUCH to all y'all that supported me by pledging, you guys are the greatest family and friends<3 I think I raised a whopping... $200?! HELL YEAH, HUGS AND KISSES FOR ALL!!! (Oh and it would be much appreciated if you paid me by Monday, August 31) :D
So today, I turned down a chance to go crabbing in SF to go shopping.. this shopping trip better be worth it!
A big THANK YOU VERY MUCH to all y'all that supported me by pledging, you guys are the greatest family and friends<3 I think I raised a whopping... $200?! HELL YEAH, HUGS AND KISSES FOR ALL!!! (Oh and it would be much appreciated if you paid me by Monday, August 31) :D
So today, I turned down a chance to go crabbing in SF to go shopping.. this shopping trip better be worth it!
Friday, July 24, 2009
The carpet being yanked out
My mother told me I can't swim for the next two weeks, ugggggggh!!! god, i'm so pissed. And I think I know why too; she's testing me. She thinks I hang out with people on the team too much and she thinks it's a replay of my "suspicious" behavior from back in 8th grade. She wants to see how mad I get and play me out as a the lying bad guy. WELL IT AIN'T GONNA WORK. Instead of the whining teenager, I'm gonna be the responsible adult and make her the whining teenager. This little experiment should be interesting. I'll figure out the details later... for now, I'm gonna go punch a wall. I WANNA SWIM!!! She can't take that away from me; to do so would mean that she must not know me at all!
Physics finals are over, HALLELUJAH! Professor still hasn't updated grades yet... but I really do hope that I maintain my grade, even with the final that was such a jerk move on her part. I'm really glad I took the class though cause 6 weeks and it's over! Now all that's left is that annoying US History class... and SAT classes that start next week. Aiyaaaa, when will summer truly begin?
Physics finals are over, HALLELUJAH! Professor still hasn't updated grades yet... but I really do hope that I maintain my grade, even with the final that was such a jerk move on her part. I'm really glad I took the class though cause 6 weeks and it's over! Now all that's left is that annoying US History class... and SAT classes that start next week. Aiyaaaa, when will summer truly begin?
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Junk food
So Junior Olympics is tomorrow and I'm really scared. I haven't been eating as carefully as I should have. I had an ice cream sundae last night and now I regret it. I don't feel like I'm in really good shape like I was during swim season at MHS. I just feel... normal. Therefore my game plan for tomorrow is just to arrive, warm up, swim, warm down, wait for Gideon and Kelvin to finish, shower, then take a nap during the hour-long ride home... which basically translates to get in, get out, get ahead. 100 back ain't that long anyways. I'll be beyond satisfied if I can reach my PR of 1:04.93 (which seems to be unattainable now), although it was be AWESOME if I drop a few milliseconds. Who knows, I haven't swam at a long course meet in months.
The US History test at Deanza wasn't too horrible. Easier than I thought, but still hard nonetheless. Thank god I had Jonathan, Kevin, and Tram taking it with me. Without that major cram session, I wouldn't have been able to answer a lot of the stupid questions. Sorry Kevin for accidentally-on-purpose dropping your phone. And Tram, those macbook pictures seriously made me laugh so hard that I cried, haha.
I try to use my wishes veeeery carefully. There is a bigger picture. Don't you think it's silly to wish for a short term desire?
The US History test at Deanza wasn't too horrible. Easier than I thought, but still hard nonetheless. Thank god I had Jonathan, Kevin, and Tram taking it with me. Without that major cram session, I wouldn't have been able to answer a lot of the stupid questions. Sorry Kevin for accidentally-on-purpose dropping your phone. And Tram, those macbook pictures seriously made me laugh so hard that I cried, haha.
I try to use my wishes veeeery carefully. There is a bigger picture. Don't you think it's silly to wish for a short term desire?
Friday, July 10, 2009
I can only go so far
Duck duck goose (F*** f*** shoes), Elbow Tag, and Australian Pursuit are greeeat games. Even the hell set was kinda fun today :) Practice has been more playing and less swimming, which I kinda have mixed feelings on. I wanna be perfectly in shape for Junior Olympics and I only have one week to do so, but if our coaches won't let us concentrate on SWIMMING, I don't know how I possibly can get ready by then. I need a coach to push me to my limits until I hate (or should I say "strongly dislike") them... but in reality, I won't hate them for long if I improve and get better times. I'm not supposed to enjoy practice like this! I'm supposed to be sore on a daily basis.
I guess all that complaining was "counterintuitive," as my physics teacher would say. But hey, no pain, no gain.
I guess all that complaining was "counterintuitive," as my physics teacher would say. But hey, no pain, no gain.
"I feel like I just seen the sun for the first time."
Friday, June 5, 2009
Reality approaching
I am supposed to go take a practice SAT test tomorrow morning, like a simulated version of the real one. I really think I should go cause it would be very good practice but my mommy won't let me. She says I am too hard on myself and that I need my rest, but I think she is wrong! I just want to be prepared for the real SATs next year and practice makes perfect, right? Sure I am exhausted, but sleeping in is a fool's reason for missing an opportunity. But then again, I have no choice. My mommy is my ride.
Paycheck for election working arrived today. I need to save up to start buying gas for my (future) hand-me-down Ford Explorer haha.
I don't like a certain swimming picture of me in the yearbook but the underwater one turned out cool. And guess what? Coach talked about me and Gideon at CCS in the MHS Union, hehe. Which reminds me, I wonder if I got into journalism...
When the balloons were released into the air at the senior rally today, it was pretty depressing. I thought about all the seniors that I have gotten close to, but are LEAVING. How I would definitely miss talking to An Nguyen everyday and hunting for hot guys at meets, seeing Ivy Nguyen's smartass and beautiful face in 2nd period, watching Michelle Pham leading our swim team and being my 500 free buddy, making fun of Allison Hoang everyday, chilling or getting food with Ronald Manuel in 4th, doing "supplies!" to Michael Pham almost everyday, and laughing at Lauren Padilla's crazy antics. I love them all, and it seems to weird not being in their presence or be jealous that they are moving on with their lives and mine is kind of in a standstill. The Class of 09 definitely cannot be replaced and the people I have met in that class are some of the greatest people I have had the honor of knowing.
It's unofficial but if the thing I found out today is true, THEN THAT IS SO FREAKIN' AWESOME! When I know for sure, I will post an update :)
Paycheck for election working arrived today. I need to save up to start buying gas for my (future) hand-me-down Ford Explorer haha.
I don't like a certain swimming picture of me in the yearbook but the underwater one turned out cool. And guess what? Coach talked about me and Gideon at CCS in the MHS Union, hehe. Which reminds me, I wonder if I got into journalism...
When the balloons were released into the air at the senior rally today, it was pretty depressing. I thought about all the seniors that I have gotten close to, but are LEAVING. How I would definitely miss talking to An Nguyen everyday and hunting for hot guys at meets, seeing Ivy Nguyen's smartass and beautiful face in 2nd period, watching Michelle Pham leading our swim team and being my 500 free buddy, making fun of Allison Hoang everyday, chilling or getting food with Ronald Manuel in 4th, doing "supplies!" to Michael Pham almost everyday, and laughing at Lauren Padilla's crazy antics. I love them all, and it seems to weird not being in their presence or be jealous that they are moving on with their lives and mine is kind of in a standstill. The Class of 09 definitely cannot be replaced and the people I have met in that class are some of the greatest people I have had the honor of knowing.
It's unofficial but if the thing I found out today is true, THEN THAT IS SO FREAKIN' AWESOME! When I know for sure, I will post an update :)
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Satisfaction
MVP!!! :D And suddenly, everything was worth it. Just for that trophy. The friends I couldn't hang out with because of practice, the events I missed, the all-day all-night whole body pain, the after-practice fatigue and exhaustion, Pagan punishments, morning practices before school, the stupid 500's, sunburns, dry skin, tanlines, EVERYTHING... because it got me this far. And I am happy happy happy :)
Also, "Most likely to be on Ripley's Believe It Or Not for her tanline" hahaha. Dude I am gonna miss the seniors like craaaaazy! It's really hard to imagine a team with them gone. The WERE the team, the soul and essence of it. And with them leaving, its like the energy and life is just being sucked out. A bit dramatic I guess, but very hard to deal with.
But on the bright side, Coach Pagan said we ARE gonna have a swim team next year, we just need to find a pool to practice in. So our future as a team is safe! And now the seniors can visit us whenever they want (if they want... lol)
^ Yay, a CCS team picture with Coach! Why the hell am I the shortest?!
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Long weekend, short temper
A craaaazy ass weekend. One that makes you tired but happy and thankful for everything you have. I wish I had more pictures though.
Friday: bruises all over from brutal games of animal ball, tanning, schmear, cannonball competitions, racist jokes.
Saturday: Kelvin's surprise party at Jason's, Zach's cupcake video=instant LOL, possibly poisoning from my stupid dare, guy-on-guy action/foreplay, drove to 3 different parks that all had families in it, ended up at Pomeroy playground, Monkey boy on monkey bars, hand calluses.
Sunday: Tram's birthday, XXI hot pink bag, red mango froyo, new shirts & bag, Cheesecake Factory, Disney Channel.
I don't know why my mom has such a short temper lately, but she takes it out on my and my brother. She is so naggy when she is moody! She won't even let me go to someone's birthday or do anything! It takes too much time and energy to reason with her. She pretty much wants me trapped at home being the perfect asian child. Well fuck that, I'm not. Ugh, she makes me so frustrated!! I wake up, expecting a relaxing weekend, but apparently, that is such a stupid and horrible thing to expect. The little things I do wrong, the big things I do wrong; what in the world do I do right then?! She really needs to calm down, stop yelling, stop worrying, stop nagging, stop hovering over my life, and stop ruining people's good moods.
*It's funny just how much you sound like me a few years back. A person doesn't change. It took me a while to learn that lesson.
Friday: bruises all over from brutal games of animal ball, tanning, schmear, cannonball competitions, racist jokes.
Saturday: Kelvin's surprise party at Jason's, Zach's cupcake video=instant LOL, possibly poisoning from my stupid dare, guy-on-guy action/foreplay, drove to 3 different parks that all had families in it, ended up at Pomeroy playground, Monkey boy on monkey bars, hand calluses.
Sunday: Tram's birthday, XXI hot pink bag, red mango froyo, new shirts & bag, Cheesecake Factory, Disney Channel.
I don't know why my mom has such a short temper lately, but she takes it out on my and my brother. She is so naggy when she is moody! She won't even let me go to someone's birthday or do anything! It takes too much time and energy to reason with her. She pretty much wants me trapped at home being the perfect asian child. Well fuck that, I'm not. Ugh, she makes me so frustrated!! I wake up, expecting a relaxing weekend, but apparently, that is such a stupid and horrible thing to expect. The little things I do wrong, the big things I do wrong; what in the world do I do right then?! She really needs to calm down, stop yelling, stop worrying, stop nagging, stop hovering over my life, and stop ruining people's good moods.
*It's funny just how much you sound like me a few years back. A person doesn't change. It took me a while to learn that lesson.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
In one breath
I have TONS of pictures to upload here, TONS of things to say to people, TONS of memories to jot down, TONS of feelings to express. This week = extremely stressful!
League Trials
- Qualified for 100 Back, 500 Free, 400 Free relay, and 200 medley relay (I wish I could have done more, but max. is 4 events)
- Volunteer timing at Boys trials. Sunglasses come in handy, hehe.
- Mr. Miyagi, daaaaamn. You got all the girls hooked! Too bad you have a girlfriend... how depressing ):
League Finals
- 2nd place in 100 Back! (but no PR, 1:06.18)
- 8th place in 500 Free (but no PR, 6:08)
- 30 second split in 50 back for relay (my PR!)
- 59 in 100 free!!! (my PR!) Woohoo, Junior Olympics time too :D
- Kelvin and Zach's pole dancing while counting for MY event, hahaha.
- Vincent's creepy face and announcer voice makes me laugh every single time, YOU are a funny boy.
- Insanely fast and tall superhuman (Nick Trowbridge) with a 50 in 100 back, HOLY &@#$!
Pictures from Finals and Trials:
Red Robin's
- Time to gain back all the fat we lost from hard practices!
- Kelvin's lap dancing for $1 (see video on Facebook, hahaha)
- Gideon eating everyone's leftovers (his own burger, plus half of 3 other people's burgers!) I don't know how he does it...
- An and his prom date (: A+G prom pictures, haha!
- Helium balloons! This is so much fun, this is so much fun!
Mother's Day
- My favorite person in the whole wide world! (Along with my brother and my daddy)
- Red iPod nano! She loved it (:
Wild turkey/chicks
- They hatched! But they lost their mommy, apparently she got attacked by some animal so she couldn't protect them and they scattered. My dad found 5 turkey chicks and 1 chicken chick (our experiment, putting a chicken egg in a turkey nest! haha) and we are now raising them in a box.
- They chirp a lot, I think they miss their mommy. But the sad thing is, we can't find a wild animal. That is just impossible.
- Wild animals grow a whole lot faster than domestic ones... interesting. They are a barely a week old and all their feathers on their wings have grown out. Hello there evolution.
Random
- I passed the written portion of CM testing for piano! 1 more level to go until Advanced (level 10)!
- My brother has a fever, I feel so helpless when he is sickly and weak. But don't worry, the doctor said its not swine flu.
- Practice this week is pretty painful, but very short. And I am the only girl stuck with 6 other guys in one pool. CCS IS IN 3 DAYS, omg omg omg fuck fuck fuck.
For YOU
- And like always, please do not ask me about these or try to guess who it is. Most likely, you will be wrong.
1. Yes, I noticed. But as I have said before, there is no point putting in effort if I don't see any in return. Lost some, gained some.
2. Why do you have to be here? It was fine not seeing you around, until now. Makes me feel like everything I do is awkward.
3. Shoot, I think I might like you. But if I admit it, it's kinda like I am trampling over a major friendship.
4. We have always been good friends, but I think a little too close and too clingy for comfort.
5. It surprises me that I look forward to seeing you everyday.
6. Thanks for putting up with me (and your welcome for putting up with you! lol!), but why the fuck does your birthday have to be in one of the most stressful weeks of sophomore year?!?!
Back to AP World studying... (Countdown: 2 DAYS!!!) I have an okay feeling about the test, but I am extremely nervous still. Wish me luck!
League Trials
- Qualified for 100 Back, 500 Free, 400 Free relay, and 200 medley relay (I wish I could have done more, but max. is 4 events)
- Volunteer timing at Boys trials. Sunglasses come in handy, hehe.
- Mr. Miyagi, daaaaamn. You got all the girls hooked! Too bad you have a girlfriend... how depressing ):
League Finals
- 2nd place in 100 Back! (but no PR, 1:06.18)
- 8th place in 500 Free (but no PR, 6:08)
- 30 second split in 50 back for relay (my PR!)
- 59 in 100 free!!! (my PR!) Woohoo, Junior Olympics time too :D
- Kelvin and Zach's pole dancing while counting for MY event, hahaha.
- Vincent's creepy face and announcer voice makes me laugh every single time, YOU are a funny boy.
- Insanely fast and tall superhuman (Nick Trowbridge) with a 50 in 100 back, HOLY &@#$!
Pictures from Finals and Trials:
Red Robin's
- Time to gain back all the fat we lost from hard practices!
- Kelvin's lap dancing for $1 (see video on Facebook, hahaha)
- Gideon eating everyone's leftovers (his own burger, plus half of 3 other people's burgers!) I don't know how he does it...
- An and his prom date (: A+G prom pictures, haha!
- Helium balloons! This is so much fun, this is so much fun!
Mother's Day
- My favorite person in the whole wide world! (Along with my brother and my daddy)
- Red iPod nano! She loved it (:
Wild turkey/chicks
- They hatched! But they lost their mommy, apparently she got attacked by some animal so she couldn't protect them and they scattered. My dad found 5 turkey chicks and 1 chicken chick (our experiment, putting a chicken egg in a turkey nest! haha) and we are now raising them in a box.
- They chirp a lot, I think they miss their mommy. But the sad thing is, we can't find a wild animal. That is just impossible.
- Wild animals grow a whole lot faster than domestic ones... interesting. They are a barely a week old and all their feathers on their wings have grown out. Hello there evolution.
Random
- I passed the written portion of CM testing for piano! 1 more level to go until Advanced (level 10)!
- My brother has a fever, I feel so helpless when he is sickly and weak. But don't worry, the doctor said its not swine flu.
- Practice this week is pretty painful, but very short. And I am the only girl stuck with 6 other guys in one pool. CCS IS IN 3 DAYS, omg omg omg fuck fuck fuck.
For YOU
- And like always, please do not ask me about these or try to guess who it is. Most likely, you will be wrong.
1. Yes, I noticed. But as I have said before, there is no point putting in effort if I don't see any in return. Lost some, gained some.
2. Why do you have to be here? It was fine not seeing you around, until now. Makes me feel like everything I do is awkward.
3. Shoot, I think I might like you. But if I admit it, it's kinda like I am trampling over a major friendship.
4. We have always been good friends, but I think a little too close and too clingy for comfort.
5. It surprises me that I look forward to seeing you everyday.
6. Thanks for putting up with me (and your welcome for putting up with you! lol!), but why the fuck does your birthday have to be in one of the most stressful weeks of sophomore year?!?!
Back to AP World studying... (Countdown: 2 DAYS!!!) I have an okay feeling about the test, but I am extremely nervous still. Wish me luck!
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
End of an era
Last day of practice. It's not even bittersweet, it's just totally bitter ): The beloved seniors... they make up half the team! And they are pretty much most of the team in the area of SPIRIT. All 3 varsity team captains will be gone! We will be so lost. At least practice today was fun. Overall, we had an easy practice today cause of League trials tomorrow. Pagan (our coach) actually jumped into the pool for the first time in years and beat Loomis (JV coach) in 25 free, heheh. Afterwards, we did whale dives (the video above) and more dives/flips/flops off the diving board. But the whole time, everyone had a sense of THE END... it was quite depressing to think about.
The red iPod nano I bought for my mommy had arrived! The red is so puuurty, just like her blackberry that she loves. The poor lady had hers stolen at the gym. But shhh, don't tell her! Mother's Day Surprise (: She actually believed me when I said I had no money to buy her anything, that silly lady, teehee.
1. Maybe ignorance wasn't such a good idea, but tough walls are hard to tear down. Built tough to last long, as a matter of fact.
2. We didn't get as close as I had hoped, but it's a start. We've got plenty of time.
3. Oh I love you guys, so funnaaaaay. Yat yi sam sei CHAI DUCK EYE!
4. Ew ew ew not interested, go away.
5. Hi there, how you been? I wish I could say that to you in person...
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Why I am stressing out right now
- Probably the hardest week of practice in the swim season, everything muscle hurts like a motherrrrr. Leagues in 1 week, CCS in 2 weeks.
- AP World test in 15 days!!! Must keep studying...
- Bielski isn't letting Harrison's kids take the AP World practice test, which I desperately need!!
- CCS is the day after AP World test, and I found out I have a Chem test on the day of CCS. Yeah, thanks. Just keep piling it on -___-
- Mission college physics class is filling up (only like 6 spots left) but I still have to wait another 3 damn weeks to register.
- Online US History class this summer is FULL, uggggggggh.
- My chem project experiment pretty much failed so I have to redo it.
- Too late for lifeguarding job (didn't really want to do it anyways; already too dark!), Read to Succeed (same; would only have been able to attend half the sessions), and Wisdom Chinese Camp (same again; 60 hours/week with little kids the age of my brother, SHOOT ME!).
- My rugball team sucks, enough said.
On the brightside:
- I finally paid AP ($86) and swimming jacket/suit fees ($95) that should have been paid last year.
- I got to skip crazy Mollot's BORING ASS class today for ortho.
- Braces off within 2 months max!
- No more stupid STAR testing! No more test fatigue, confusion from scrambled up classes, and general exhaustion from all of the above.
Yeah, negatives definitely outweigh the positives. If I can't take Physics, my summer will be a complete waste (Well, other than the SAT classes that I already applied for). I need to rake in those community service hours somehow, any ideas?
- AP World test in 15 days!!! Must keep studying...
- Bielski isn't letting Harrison's kids take the AP World practice test, which I desperately need!!
- CCS is the day after AP World test, and I found out I have a Chem test on the day of CCS. Yeah, thanks. Just keep piling it on -___-
- Mission college physics class is filling up (only like 6 spots left) but I still have to wait another 3 damn weeks to register.
- Online US History class this summer is FULL, uggggggggh.
- My chem project experiment pretty much failed so I have to redo it.
- Too late for lifeguarding job (didn't really want to do it anyways; already too dark!), Read to Succeed (same; would only have been able to attend half the sessions), and Wisdom Chinese Camp (same again; 60 hours/week with little kids the age of my brother, SHOOT ME!).
- My rugball team sucks, enough said.
On the brightside:
- I finally paid AP ($86) and swimming jacket/suit fees ($95) that should have been paid last year.
- I got to skip crazy Mollot's BORING ASS class today for ortho.
- Braces off within 2 months max!
- No more stupid STAR testing! No more test fatigue, confusion from scrambled up classes, and general exhaustion from all of the above.
Yeah, negatives definitely outweigh the positives. If I can't take Physics, my summer will be a complete waste (Well, other than the SAT classes that I already applied for). I need to rake in those community service hours somehow, any ideas?
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Shadow Cliffs
Shadow Cliffs Lake was heeeeella fun yesterday, some of the best times I have had in a long time. Huge wake-up call: my tanline is BAD AS F@#$! I definitely had the most obvious black/white contrast but other swimmers had bad tanlines too. Lots of asscrack (oh my gosh, so many inappropriate pictures!) and stomach tanning. Thank god for seniors with cars (even though Michael's was quite scary haha). Open water swimming in the lake was pretty nasty, there was algae floating around and somebody said that they learned in AP Bio that freshwater fish constantly pee. GROSS! We had to swim 1000 yards (cause it was technically practice for the day) in water that was bipolar cause some areas were warm and some were freezing. Afterwards, volleyball! With no net and on burning hot sand, but it was still one of the funnest volleyball games ever (Courtesy clap, LOL!). Dove for the ball a few times and got a booboo from the sand ): Then we played Patricia's game (Stick your feet in the sand then push people over. Lesson: if you laugh too hard or if the guys push you, you fall over easily) then Chicken ("My head is getting raped by penises!" --says An. Hahaha). On the way back, stopped at Verde for Happy Hour. Buy 1 milk tea, get 1 free :D Totally exhausted from too much sun exposure and the heat (95 degrees!) but definitely worth it.
(^ Emo attempt at One Tree Hill haha)
(^ Laughing too hard cause An sprayed sunblock down Gideon's ass)
(^ Emo attempt at One Tree Hill haha)
(^ Laughing too hard cause An sprayed sunblock down Gideon's ass)
Monday, April 20, 2009
Unprofessional
Water polo was fun at morning practice. Too bad we are too poor to afford a water polo team.
I forgot to post the professional swim team picture. Two weeks ago, we had a practice devoted almost entirely to taking pictures. (Click pictures to view larger)
This year's Varsity girls, as compared with last year's. The seniors and Michelle Tu are missing ):
2007 seemed like a lifetime ago. Two years, any easier? Mr. Bayly, I think you are right. How can I possibly can I go forward?
I forgot to post the professional swim team picture. Two weeks ago, we had a practice devoted almost entirely to taking pictures. (Click pictures to view larger)
This year's Varsity girls, as compared with last year's. The seniors and Michelle Tu are missing ):
2007 seemed like a lifetime ago. Two years, any easier? Mr. Bayly, I think you are right. How can I possibly can I go forward?
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