Chugging along

I don't like being moody, but I am a terribly moody person. I'm sure it annoys my closest friends and it definitely annoys me too. I don't really understand how I can be completely I'm-on-top-of-the-world euphoric and fuck-off-cause-I-don't-give-a-flying-fuck pissed the next minute. And there are a few certain people I take it out on that don't deserve it at all; I'm sorry and please bear with me. I sincerely hope that when the stress of high school is over, I will be my sweet old self from... 4th grade? haha. Buuuuuuut, not likely. College will be worse.

My internet addiction is disgraceful. And I'm hungry all the freakin' time. I have no self-control when it comes to internet and food. If it weren't for swimming, I would send my weight scale on a hey day. And I would like to completely ignore homework like a badass if it weren't for the consequences of failing. Actually, no need. My grades in school are pretty ridiculous; I feel ashamed even thinking about it.

I wish I could somehow train my mind into making me a morning person. I wake up every morning feeling like I would trade my life just to sleep forever. I feel like I need caffeine but I would like to hold off on an addiction for as long as I can. And I've been starting to get painful migraines throughout the day, especially after I take a test or if I'm thinking too hard. I usually just stab my temples with my finger and hope that one pain will cancel out the other. I am resisting from painkillers too; that would be even worse than a coffee addiction.

One day, my brother is going to pwn at swimming. By his glory days, he will be a beast and totally enviable. Right now, he's just guppy/fish-like. However, he's darker than me now. By summer, we will be as black as this nasty, rotten banana three inches to my left, because we are already quite chocolate-y and it's only April!

Koreans have like the best music, hottest pop singers, yummiest foods, and they are the masters of dramas. It seems like such a wonderful world in Korea. I have new found appreciation for anything Korean. (oh haaaay! if you could recommend some great new Korean songs, that would be just too kind of you<3)

I need to find some motivation to power through these last few weeks of junior year. After DCON (OMFG! 2 DAYS!!!) and Junior Prom (YAAAY! 9 DAYS!!!), I will have nothing interesting going on other than school-related nonsense. I feel like I need some spice in my life.

Piling up

Today was such a bad day on so many levels. Everything seems so trivial. What's the point of hoping for better days? Nothing changes. Either things stay the same, or they get worse.

Ugly day

My second day of junior year sucked. I'm so damn tired of school already and we have 178 days to go. Today is one of those days where it seems like the entire world turns on you. Everything is pissing me off and I'm being annoying to my parents. And I have no clue where my $100 calculator is; someone borrowed it and never returned it and I hate myself for not remembering who it was.

My myspace is officially deleted.. it's about time I got rid of it. Facebook and blogspot FTW.

Love/hate... sometimes, it's hard to differentiate.

Getting things done

Man, it sucks not having a working laptop anymore. I can pretty much do everything that I normally do on my phone, except blog. I really want a LG Xenon!!! On the bright side, getting off the computer makes me a whole lot more productive :)

I managed to watch Transformers 2 in imax twice :D Totally worth it! I highly recommend watching it in imax, it makes everything so much more realistic and AWESOME. The first time, I went with my crazy friends, who I always manage to laugh my ass off (usually almost to the point of crying) with. The second time, I went with my nasty<3 and chlorinated friends. Afterwards, I started seeing trucks and yellow cars everywhere, I swear! "It's a sign, the Transformers are here!!!" --Joann.

And I managed to finish Twilight and New Moon; it took me 1 day for each book. I gotta admit, I kinda understand how they are addicting. I caved in, I decided I HAD to read New Moon before the movie came out this time and I was uber curious anyways. I agree that the book is so much better than the movie, but then again, that's always the case. Honestly though, if I were Bella, I would choose Jacob. Edward is perfect and all... but Bella is risking too much. I'm sorry, I love Edward<333 but Jacob is the practical and realistic choice.

I've noticed how moody I have become. When I am in good mood, I feel great and like I'm a riot ;) But as morning practices are taking away my precious sleep, my mood is sloooowly declining. I feel it, I show it, and I hate it. I hate how selfish I have become. I hate how my temper flares at the smallest things. I hate how I have become impatient and rash. I hate how I can't seem to pay attention in class anymore. I hate competition, but I know that I need it and crave it. And I hate how physics is becoming more and more complicated.

Thanks, you're really starting to become a great friend.

*Happy birthday cousin Austin! I am forever indebted to you for driving me everywhere on a daily basis. Also, happy belated birthday Kayjing, I miss seeing you everyday! And I cannot forget, RIP Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson, legends in their own crafts.