Sidenote

So I miss you like crazy and you're pretty much all I think about now. I want to see you again, sometime really soon. Oh and I love reading your blog. It puts a huge smile on my face :)

You know, I used to have a certain spot and I liked that spot. I felt happy, satisfied, confident. But I don't have that spot anymore and for some odd (actually, entirely explainable) reason, I don't care anymore. If I was the freshman or sophomore me, I would have felt kinda pissed and let down. But at this point in my life, I feel like I have exactly who I need. I have people who actually give a damn about me. It's plain stupid of me to expect so much, so I'm not blamely you entirely. And yeah, I'm a total hypocrite, but there are concepts that you need to understand first: I did what I could, but it's always a two-way street (technically, more like an intersection). You tried, I tried, and I guess it just ain't gonna work out. What a shame.

And the sad part is? After realizing all of this, I still know that nothing is gonna change, I'm just gonna go back to doing what I always do.

I wish I was back at camp. Things were a lot less complicated.

Habitual response

I tend to run away from people and from situations. I practice avoidance daily, pretty much. Probably not a good idea, especially since I run away from things because of a temporary fear or hesitation and I end up regretting it later.

1. There is never a day that goes by where I regret doing what I did to you, no matter how hard you took it. You are a rude, annoying, and cruel person.
2. Plaid looks good on you, but I can't look.
3. Daaang, I really can't resist. Unfortunately, responsibilities and friendships are holding me back.
4. I don't know why I feel a certain way, you are totally weird and completely different from 'my type'. And yet, I am kinda interested.
5. I can't seem to understand you! Especially how you got where you are cause I honestly don't see anything special about you.

And like always, these are things I that I hope you don't ask me about. Please don't try to guess either, you probably have no idea.