I'm in one of those moods where I can accept life. Yeah it's too hard and yeah it sucks butt, but I'm okay with that. And the thing with this kind of mood is that I am still stressing out and still anticipating something (like always), but I am at peace with mostly everything. I'm taking a breather.
Lately, I've been feeling like I am exactly where I belong, in terms of relationships with my friends and family, as well as where I am in school and in life. I believe with 100% of my heart that my parents are the best kind of parents a child could want, I honestly do. I'm blessed with a brother who showers me with unconditional love, whether I deserve it or not. My grandparents have always been supportive and been there for me. Their presence is enough. I'm proud to call these three generations of people family. We all peacefully coexist under one roof too :)
And I believe I have found a group of girls whom I am so in love with. I love how these girls are respected because we are above the influence, which is rare to find on a high school campus. We don't need any kind of substance to have a good time. Honestly, I used to worry that I was starting to lose friendships because everyone else would be hanging out together while I was doing my own thing, but now I realize that's not the case. Real friendships transcend those kinds of boundaries, and everytime we hang out, it's as if we were best friends all over again, like we had never stopped. We laugh, we talk, we play, we cry, we fight, we sing, we dance, we eat, we swim, and we watch Queen Tyra, haha. They never give me a hard time or make me feel guilty for doing what I have to do, and I am very thankful for that. These kinds of friendships are the ones that every girl hopes for, and these are the people who aren't leaving my life, no matter what :) Sorry if Dorky Dana is being uber cheesy right now, but I love y'all and you know it!<3
Another huge thing is that I feel extremely grateful that I have the opportunity to participate in what I'm passionate about. I love my MHS and MTW swimmers, I love my Key Clubbers, I love my Science Olympians, I love my Chinese school buddies, I love my piano students, and I love my Union journalists. This year has taught me, most importantly, to understand how to make the most of what I have and enjoy life. Sure, I have somehow gotten myself into all of these activities and therefore, my life has been utter craziness, but I would hate to imagine life if I didn't have any of the above. I cry and complain, but that is nowhere near how much I smile and appreciate. I am lucky to be able to chase my passions. These activities add beloved friends to my life, confidence to my personality, and a whole lot more color to my day.
And my education. Oh gosh, what a love/hate relationship we've had! Letter grades will be the death of me forevermore (qualitative > quantitative), but my teachers are what make things worthwhile. This year, I've met some of the funniest (Mr. Colburn), most compassionate (Mr. Hentschke), most adorable/cutest (Ms. Conradson), smartest (Ms. Nguyen), sexiest (Madame Topping LOL), and dedicated (Ms. Meyer) teachers... although all of the qualities above apply to all of my teachers. They are all such wise people in their own unique way. I fought for this exact schedule and these exact teachers for a reason, and I have no regrets. What I learned goes above and beyond the classroom and will be a part of my life. And although everyone hates on MHS, I really don't think it's that bad. You kinda get used to what you've called home for the past three years, and although most of the time I wish I was a senior, I don't think I'm ready to leave MHS behind just yet.
This year, I have received the gift of flight (flight = freedom and car = freedom, therefore flight = car), love, hate, joy, compassion, appreciation, and knowledge. I don't know if senior year can be as great (or as stressful; it was probably an equal mix of both) as junior year, but here's to hoping :)
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