A tidbit

Today, I found out that my great-grandfather (my dad's mother's father) was a General in the Chinese Nationalist Party and fought against the Communists. After that, he became Minister of Finance and then Governor of Szechuan province. He played both sides until he was jailed and executed by the Communists. His house (that my grandmother and her 13 brothers and sisters lived in) is now the official Szechuan library. So while my grandmother came from a fabulously wealthy family, my grandfather was dirt poor... kinda like Noah and Ali in The Notebook, which I saw last night with the girls ;)

And also today, my mom was trying to say that something was in the spur-of-the-moment, and instead she said "it's a sperm moment thing," which reminds me of how my brother said "Bacon Dexlu" when trying to order a Bacon Deluxe and how my dad said "Rockeweiler" and "Rotfeller" when trying to give me a lesson on John D. Rockefeller's Standard Oil and the fierceness of Rottweiler dogs.

My brother is eight years old

Brother: Mom, when I grow up, I'm going to marry you!
Mom: I'm already married!
Brother: To who!?
Mom: Daddy.
Brother: What? I thought you two were brothers and sisters!

Replaying

I have too much to say about the past few weeks that I... don't even know what to say. All I think about nowadays is college. My daily pattern is this:
- I wonder if I'll get into college
- I'm hungry.
- What if I don't?
- I'm thirsty.
- Which college?
- I'm sleepy.
- What if they don't like me?
- I wonder what he/she (some random person) is thinking right now.
- I need to get into college.

It's the "What if"'s in life that will slowly cause you to decay away, but they always invade my mind. I miss everything about junior year: how people were simple and not all complicated and trashy, my positive attitude towards school, my not-too-challenging but not easy classes, and most importantly, the class of 2010. I feel like I've lost so many friends in June, friends who went off to New York, San Francisco, Davis... they all just disappeared. I'm trying not to think about it too much. What if certain things had happened? Well, nothing really happened, so it's pointless to dwell. Would anything change? Probably not. After all, everything happens for a reason right? This has slowly become my motto.