I have too much to say about the past few weeks that I... don't even know what to say. All I think about nowadays is college. My daily pattern is this:
- I wonder if I'll get into college
- I'm hungry.
- What if I don't?
- I'm thirsty.
- Which college?
- I'm sleepy.
- What if they don't like me?
- I wonder what he/she (some random person) is thinking right now.
- I need to get into college.
It's the "What if"'s in life that will slowly cause you to decay away, but they always invade my mind. I miss everything about junior year: how people were simple and not all complicated and trashy, my positive attitude towards school, my not-too-challenging but not easy classes, and most importantly, the class of 2010. I feel like I've lost so many friends in June, friends who went off to New York, San Francisco, Davis... they all just disappeared. I'm trying not to think about it too much. What if certain things had happened? Well, nothing really happened, so it's pointless to dwell. Would anything change? Probably not. After all, everything happens for a reason right? This has slowly become my motto.
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