Side note;

I just realized, my blogs are starting to get boring as hell. I do still have deeper things to blog about rather than how my day went, but I am starting to get shy again. Maybe I should have just kept my blogs on private. Reconsidering it.

FFF

Today was heeeectic. Figuring out weekend plans & shit. HSM3/Saw5 or Fright Fest tomorrow? No way am I gonna ask my mom to take me to both. I AM NOT STUPID, haha. So I chose Fright Fest, I really wanna go. For a few reasons: its only once a year, I get to use my season pass, & it sounds like the bomb!!! All the scary things Cecilia said just made me want to go even more. & Guess what? My mom actually said maybe! NO KIDDING! As long as I finish my homework (easy peasy!). Hopefully she doesn't bail on her word like Homecoming, but eh. At least I have a maybe :D Which is totally good enough for me. I can't wait! As for HSM3/Saw5, I can just watch that online or some other day. Heeeella people are gonna be at the theaters today anyways.

Wendy brought her camera to practice today, but we didn't even use it! I wanted to catch an action shot of my dive so I can fix it. It needs some fixing forsure. But we didn't have time, I was helping with the Spooktacular setup decorations. Conditioning was easy but I wish we played more volleyball. I brought my ball for practically nothing!

My room is a complete mess, can barely walk through it. Am I gonna clean it? No thanks, I wanna watch some TV for now.

Sweet

So yesterday I was all moody. No real reason, just one of those days. I would get annoyed really easily at the smallest things at school. But that's when I turned to my hobbies outside of school. Made me realize the real ME time is when I'm swimming and when I play piano; two things that I used to dread doing every single day. But now, a part of me realizes that its a time when I can really escape. I have a chance to clear my mind of the day and rid myself of anything else that is bothering me, at least for an hour or two. I love my swim team buddies, they can always manage to make me laugh & make a hard set a lot less hard. & I'm not afraid to look stupid in front of them, so I just give it my best and because of their support (& very useful criticism), I can accomplish things like how improved my dive!! & Piano... is still tedious. Especially earning new songs and trying to achieve some really complicated fingering. But there are a few songs that really calm me. Apologize (by One Republic) is the best. Mariage D'amour is another oldie-but-goodie. & Right Here Waiting is so simple but lovely. So today, I am thankful for receiving the opportunity to do what I love to do. & I am thankful for my parents for allowing me to pursue ANY (& pretty much EVERY) single hobby, even though I quit most of them. But I am very, very appreciative for having the choice & the chance. Just thinking about the recent car accident made me realize how lucky we ALL are.

Today was better. My pecs hurt, for like the first time ever. All because of Pushups + Butterfly drills. Tomorrow we are running for conditioning, yay! Reminder: Need to buy a new suit. Axcelbacks<3

I am getting worried about a friendship. Kindasortareally bothers me now. But I will remain silent, which I am getting better and better at.