Sunday, June 6, 2010

Fantasy

I don't know where my head has been lately, but it's definitely not where it's supposed to be. Junioritis (or just plain laziness) is hitting me HARD, and it sucks butt. I really need to pull a miracle out of my ass to maintain by GPA, or I'm gonna haaaaate myself so badly. Hey finals, please don't screw me over!!! I must somehow finish strong.

I just bought summer dresses for the first time ever! Sad huh? I'm always wearing a v-neck and shorts, how terrible! My mom got all sentimental: "When you were little, I dressed you up in a cute dress everyday! And then last year you wouldn't let me, but look! NOW you want to be a girl!" blah blah blah. These dresses I bought today make me slightly giddy though :) I need summer so badly!

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Know your worth

"Cause it makes me that much stronger,
Makes me work a little bit harder,
It makes me that much wiser,
So thanks for making me a fighter.
Made me learn a little bit faster,
Made my skin a little bit thicker,
Makes me that much smarter,
So thanks for making me a fighter."
-- "Fighter," by Christina Aguilera

I have a feeling that anything I say about this will turn into a lengthy quote explication (which I hate). So I shall just say that these lyrics are quite relevant to me, as they always have been.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

No progression

There are moments when I feel like I'm living the best years of my life, but then there are moments when I just want to be an entirely different person. It's rather depressing to think that there's always something to look forward to, but it will always pass. I'm starting to think that I spend most of my life anticipating something in the near future. I can't really seem to enjoy the present since I'm always looking forward.

I think I'm addicted to Facebook and AIM. Even when I leave my computer, I just log in with my iPhone. I hate it. I feel weird and uncomfortable without it. It makes me wonder what kind of generation we are becoming. As adults, will we just never leave the house?

I don't know what I want, but I definitely know what I don't want, so I shall enjoy things while they last. And for the record, clingyness, PDA, and people who take things up the butt all the time and are too serious are things that I cannot stand. I can literally feel my heart/chest area beat a little bit faster because of extreme annoyance.