"Cause it makes me that much stronger,
Makes me work a little bit harder,
It makes me that much wiser,
So thanks for making me a fighter.
Made me learn a little bit faster,
Made my skin a little bit thicker,
Makes me that much smarter,
So thanks for making me a fighter."
-- "Fighter," by Christina Aguilera
I have a feeling that anything I say about this will turn into a lengthy quote explication (which I hate). So I shall just say that these lyrics are quite relevant to me, as they always have been.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Saturday, May 29, 2010
No progression
There are moments when I feel like I'm living the best years of my life, but then there are moments when I just want to be an entirely different person. It's rather depressing to think that there's always something to look forward to, but it will always pass. I'm starting to think that I spend most of my life anticipating something in the near future. I can't really seem to enjoy the present since I'm always looking forward.
I think I'm addicted to Facebook and AIM. Even when I leave my computer, I just log in with my iPhone. I hate it. I feel weird and uncomfortable without it. It makes me wonder what kind of generation we are becoming. As adults, will we just never leave the house?
I don't know what I want, but I definitely know what I don't want, so I shall enjoy things while they last. And for the record, clingyness, PDA, and people who take things up the butt all the time and are too serious are things that I cannot stand. I can literally feel my heart/chest area beat a little bit faster because of extreme annoyance.
I think I'm addicted to Facebook and AIM. Even when I leave my computer, I just log in with my iPhone. I hate it. I feel weird and uncomfortable without it. It makes me wonder what kind of generation we are becoming. As adults, will we just never leave the house?
I don't know what I want, but I definitely know what I don't want, so I shall enjoy things while they last. And for the record, clingyness, PDA, and people who take things up the butt all the time and are too serious are things that I cannot stand. I can literally feel my heart/chest area beat a little bit faster because of extreme annoyance.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
The greatest people
Swim season 2010 is over. I really don't know what to say without being uber cliche, but the end of swim season is always the end of a part of my life. The daily routine of practice really grew on me. When life got hard, or when everything else was changing for the worst, I knew that getting in the pool, seeing my swimming buddies, and being able to swim my troubles away was the one thing that could remain constant. It was the one aspect of life I could always depend on and it made life a little less complicated. This year is the hardest, cause a majority of the team is the class of 2010 and everyone has gotten so much closer. We've seen each other practically naked, at our low points, being miserable and cranky at practice, and right after we just swam a terrible race, but we're still here for each other nonetheless. I feel like the seniors on the team each deserve a special little dedication, so here I go.
Wendy Yim, I honestly don't know what I am gonna do without you. We've been swimming every single day for almost 5 years now. When everyone else skipped practice for whatever odd reason, I knew it was practically a given that I would see you at practice and that was reassuring to me. I'm gonna dearly miss our daily routines of complaining about being sore/tired/cold/lazy/hungry, reluctantly changing into our swimsuits, hopping into freezing water, whining about sets, showering, gossiping, and saying "bye, see you at practice tomorrow!" It's gonna be hard to not cheer you on at meets or knowing that you're cheering me on at my events. You have been my one and only Bus Buddy for every single meet for more than two years now; that's more than 30 meets and 60 bus rides together where we've slept, talked, laughed, and took pictures. You've seen me without braces, with braces, and without braces again, and I've seen you go through the exact same process; that's how long we've known each other. We've been through so many tough sets and workouts together. You were the first face I saw at 5am in the summer and the last face I saw at 6pm in the fall, winter, and spring. You're the person that I've suffered with through all of these years. You were the one person who I could talk to about anyone on the team or even the coach without being afraid that you would go behind my back and tell that person. I love how we could trust each other, even though we hung out with a totally different group of friends at school. There's this unique bond, a different and stronger kind of friendship, when two friends have been through what we have. It's not gonna be the same with you in college and me still stuck in high school. For me, swimming isn't really swimming without my best friend. How can I look forward to next swim season without you?
Wow, I just cried -__- Geez. ugh, whatever. I'll continue anyways.
Kelvin Shing, you are such an adorable guy. I love how you always smile like a giddy little kid, no matter what. You have amazing stamina and I've always respected how you never complain about swimming or a set. I'll miss your creepy laugh, weird stare, tummy roll, and little giggle. We've been swimming together everyday for almost 4 years now, and it's hard to believe that the time is almost here where I'll probably never swim with you again. If you don't come visit us, I'll go to Shing's Hair Studio and tell your mom to call you down to Milpitas! :)
Paxton Lund-Hayes, you have the biggest personality, but along with that, you also have the biggest heart. You're like the older sister of the team, always taking care of us like a sweet older sister would. You always know how to make things a little more interesting and we love you for that. And I've always wanted to say that you have the most beautiful and fascinating eyes ever; it honestly is hard to look away. I know you've been through a lot and we aren't the closest of friends, but I do care about you and I'm always here to listen.
Anthony Duran, I gotta say that you are one amazing team captain. You have the leadership quality in you and I know it's gonna get you far. Thanks for the pizza feed and letting your family take care of a busload of hungry swimmers. I've seen you improve so much this season. I can never understand how you can do so much butterfly in one practice but it's just another aspect that I look up to. I was so proud of you when you PR'ed at finals! :) Your artwork never ceases to amaze me and I think you deserve to work at Pixar, your dream since forever right? Your girlfriend is adorable and you guys look so great together. Duran the man, you're freakin' great.
Ashley Andrews, you are such a down-to-earth girl. It's hard to believe that you are so beastly on land in basketball and volleyball, and in the pool. I don't think there's ever been a meet where we haven't been on the same relay team, and I'm always proud to have you in my relay. You are one of the nicest people I've met and I definitely hope you stay this way.
Tam Can, I think you have the cutest smile, cutest face, and cutest laugh. And I secretly love (in a non-perverted way) saying "Tam tam!" You always take care of us with your endless supply of deliciously satisfying junk food; you always have it right when I'm about to go delirious with hunger. And thanks for saving my ass when I forgot my swim suit at the biggest meet of the year. Dork and I will definitely miss you.
Marcus Fernandez, you are too funny. Thanks for always making fun of me! :) Kidding of course. I'll never look at a potato or tomato without hearing your creepy and annoying song. But honestly, you definitely are one cool kid with a great personality. And you seem like a totally capable lifeguard, as long as you don't slip on polyfiber glass haha. You better visit us!
Joanna Yau, you are one adorable girl. You have such a sweet smile that it honestly makes me want to hug you. How dare you not swim with us before! I do wish I could have gotten to know you better, especially since I just met you this year. It's hard to believe you're leaving me after we just met. Girl, you are one fast swimmer too! For some odd reason, you remind me so much of myself. I don't know how exactly, but you do. I know we would have been great friends if we could have spent more time together. Us Chinese girls gotta stick together, you know? :) I do wish you all the best in life and hopefully we'll see each other again someday.
Matias Espinoza, you are one awesome swimmer. I like how you love playing pranks and just overall had a good attitude about everything. Great job organizing the Hometown Buffet dinner, it was definitely a good idea and I'm glad the plan came through. You, Stephen, and Marcus are such goofballs, but you guys know how to make things more fun.
And to Zack Liang, Vincent Page, Kevin Vuong, Dorothy Hoang, Amy Tran, Michelle, Katherine Vuong, Yvonne Pham, Kristi Pontipiedra, Annie Hsu, Stephen Vu, Jason Jung, and the rest of my beloved MHS swimmers: If you guys dare quit on me next year, you better watch out! The team definitely isn't the same without any of you.
Wendy Yim, I honestly don't know what I am gonna do without you. We've been swimming every single day for almost 5 years now. When everyone else skipped practice for whatever odd reason, I knew it was practically a given that I would see you at practice and that was reassuring to me. I'm gonna dearly miss our daily routines of complaining about being sore/tired/cold/lazy/hungry, reluctantly changing into our swimsuits, hopping into freezing water, whining about sets, showering, gossiping, and saying "bye, see you at practice tomorrow!" It's gonna be hard to not cheer you on at meets or knowing that you're cheering me on at my events. You have been my one and only Bus Buddy for every single meet for more than two years now; that's more than 30 meets and 60 bus rides together where we've slept, talked, laughed, and took pictures. You've seen me without braces, with braces, and without braces again, and I've seen you go through the exact same process; that's how long we've known each other. We've been through so many tough sets and workouts together. You were the first face I saw at 5am in the summer and the last face I saw at 6pm in the fall, winter, and spring. You're the person that I've suffered with through all of these years. You were the one person who I could talk to about anyone on the team or even the coach without being afraid that you would go behind my back and tell that person. I love how we could trust each other, even though we hung out with a totally different group of friends at school. There's this unique bond, a different and stronger kind of friendship, when two friends have been through what we have. It's not gonna be the same with you in college and me still stuck in high school. For me, swimming isn't really swimming without my best friend. How can I look forward to next swim season without you?
Wow, I just cried -__- Geez. ugh, whatever. I'll continue anyways.
Kelvin Shing, you are such an adorable guy. I love how you always smile like a giddy little kid, no matter what. You have amazing stamina and I've always respected how you never complain about swimming or a set. I'll miss your creepy laugh, weird stare, tummy roll, and little giggle. We've been swimming together everyday for almost 4 years now, and it's hard to believe that the time is almost here where I'll probably never swim with you again. If you don't come visit us, I'll go to Shing's Hair Studio and tell your mom to call you down to Milpitas! :)
Paxton Lund-Hayes, you have the biggest personality, but along with that, you also have the biggest heart. You're like the older sister of the team, always taking care of us like a sweet older sister would. You always know how to make things a little more interesting and we love you for that. And I've always wanted to say that you have the most beautiful and fascinating eyes ever; it honestly is hard to look away. I know you've been through a lot and we aren't the closest of friends, but I do care about you and I'm always here to listen.
Anthony Duran, I gotta say that you are one amazing team captain. You have the leadership quality in you and I know it's gonna get you far. Thanks for the pizza feed and letting your family take care of a busload of hungry swimmers. I've seen you improve so much this season. I can never understand how you can do so much butterfly in one practice but it's just another aspect that I look up to. I was so proud of you when you PR'ed at finals! :) Your artwork never ceases to amaze me and I think you deserve to work at Pixar, your dream since forever right? Your girlfriend is adorable and you guys look so great together. Duran the man, you're freakin' great.
Ashley Andrews, you are such a down-to-earth girl. It's hard to believe that you are so beastly on land in basketball and volleyball, and in the pool. I don't think there's ever been a meet where we haven't been on the same relay team, and I'm always proud to have you in my relay. You are one of the nicest people I've met and I definitely hope you stay this way.
Tam Can, I think you have the cutest smile, cutest face, and cutest laugh. And I secretly love (in a non-perverted way) saying "Tam tam!" You always take care of us with your endless supply of deliciously satisfying junk food; you always have it right when I'm about to go delirious with hunger. And thanks for saving my ass when I forgot my swim suit at the biggest meet of the year. Dork and I will definitely miss you.
Marcus Fernandez, you are too funny. Thanks for always making fun of me! :) Kidding of course. I'll never look at a potato or tomato without hearing your creepy and annoying song. But honestly, you definitely are one cool kid with a great personality. And you seem like a totally capable lifeguard, as long as you don't slip on polyfiber glass haha. You better visit us!
Joanna Yau, you are one adorable girl. You have such a sweet smile that it honestly makes me want to hug you. How dare you not swim with us before! I do wish I could have gotten to know you better, especially since I just met you this year. It's hard to believe you're leaving me after we just met. Girl, you are one fast swimmer too! For some odd reason, you remind me so much of myself. I don't know how exactly, but you do. I know we would have been great friends if we could have spent more time together. Us Chinese girls gotta stick together, you know? :) I do wish you all the best in life and hopefully we'll see each other again someday.
Matias Espinoza, you are one awesome swimmer. I like how you love playing pranks and just overall had a good attitude about everything. Great job organizing the Hometown Buffet dinner, it was definitely a good idea and I'm glad the plan came through. You, Stephen, and Marcus are such goofballs, but you guys know how to make things more fun.
And to Zack Liang, Vincent Page, Kevin Vuong, Dorothy Hoang, Amy Tran, Michelle, Katherine Vuong, Yvonne Pham, Kristi Pontipiedra, Annie Hsu, Stephen Vu, Jason Jung, and the rest of my beloved MHS swimmers: If you guys dare quit on me next year, you better watch out! The team definitely isn't the same without any of you.
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